Hard to do...

It's funny, you go in to the night thinking its going to be awesome, thus far the night has failed it's task. I just feel like I'm being brought further and further down because of recent events. The one night that I'm out with my friends and the place is dead as hell. Course I suppose I should read it as a sign, but the sign sucks. Leaves me wondering what I'm supposed to do. Do I just pine or do I attempt what seems to be the impossible? How do I attempt the impossible when everything is fighting me? Can I survive it? I don't know what to do or think, but I don't want anyone to tell me either. Bah.